Week 10…. wow…We are so far into this now but I keep looking ahead and seeing that we have so far to go! Then I start wondering, why am I still here? Is this all worth the time I’m investing and the time I am not spending doing other things? Then I think “what other things?” With Covid-19 lockdowns and social gathering restrictions, its not like I really am doing ANYTHING. And my boyfriend is spending more time in front of the TV than I can even try to enjoy. So I’m happy that I gave most of my TV viewing up. I feel like I’m being productive at home although sometimes a little selfish too. Then other times I feel like I am just banging my head against a wall with no results to show for it.
This week I spent some time with Lori and Lucinda in webinars working on Finding My Authentic Purpose. It’s to help me with my DMP and to know if it really “fits”. We spend 7 minutes coming up with positive adjectives that describe ourselves. That was quite difficult. I’m realizing that loving myself is not as easy as it sounds. But I come up with a few adjectives including some I feel, but never thought I’d share with people outside my intimate friends. Then we spend 7 minutes coming up with the kinds of activities that give us a sense of accomplishment or that we enjoy doing. Included in that I have sailing, mixing drinks for people and walking my dog! LOL So now we come to a point where we combine these 2 words to have an “I am a” statement. I joking put together “I am a sexy traveler”. Wouldn’t you know this sentence keeps sticking with me…Is it the yellow fun me? Is it because it seems so unreal that this is what I come up with in this “serious” course I am taking? So I google the meaning of “sexy”….Miriam Webster says 1. :sexually suggestive or stimulating 2. :generally attractive or interesting. I have decided to run with the second meaning and “I AM A SEXY TRAVELER”. It totally fits with my personality traits AND my DMP. So…on to OG this week.
This sexy traveler who loves her Grande double shot, non-fat milk, sugar-free vanilla syrup cappuccino, has been feeling like I have such a long way to go to finish this course. I hear others are seeing results and feeling differences and I don’t understand. Og definitely has this nailed though. He talks of persistence in the third scroll. The part that really speaks to me is his blade against the oak. It’s not the first, second or third blow that has any consequences but it is the persistence of continuing to hit the trunk that will eventually bring it down. I start really looking at myself and where I was 10 weeks ago and where I am now. I cannot go to bed with reading Og, it just feels wrong. I cannot go without repeating “Do it Now” to myself several times a day. I exercise more regular than ever, I keep the TV off way more than ever, I am FEELING rejuvenated and I really BELIEVE that “I can be what I will to be”. Yes. These small strokes against the mighty oak will eventually bring it down. This is not a race to the finish. This is making my life the best I can! I always keep my promises!