So, welcome to week 4…PPN, DMP, GS, subby, control freaks, addiction to feelings, and now….frontal lobe? Peptides? Neuro-net? I’m pretty sure I had NO idea what I was getting myself into. But here’s the kicker…if I quit now, I’m just feeding my old habits and feeding the fix of my neuro-net..apparently quitting is my addiction to gain some kind of emotion I need.. Wow! So mind blowing!
Reading everything is defintely becoming more of a habit now. I have missed once or twice and it feels weird to NOT do the read. The reading aloud is still a little bizarre and I sometimes feel like I’m reading a sermon when I do it. Which means I likely need more EN-THU-SIA-SM (I can hear Mark’s voice say the word)
I LOVE the sits. I have a friend from a previous life who always suggested I should meditate. She never really explained how great they it would make me feel. Well, maybe she did but I wasn’t ready to hear it. I am absolutely calmer within and I really do feel more energetic as GS says I will. With the higher energy and zest for life, comes bigger falls though. I was so comfortable in bed this morning and I really just wanted to stay there most of the day (which BTW is cold, dark, and not even the big snowflakes). But my new blueprint started over-throwing that feeling. I am excited to write the blog, get me service done and maybe even have a date night.
As I enjoy my Cappuccino double shot, sugar-free vanilla syrup and non-fat milk with cinnamon and chocolate sprinkles, I do KNOW that my service of the week will get done and I will forward myself towards my PPN’s. I am so thankful it is not my conscious mind’s job to figure out how. That’s subby’s job:) Subby “makes me act in ways I do not comprehend”. I somehow feel that as I keep doing my exercises, my DMP is closer than I think it is. Just like those golden apples in Hesperides’ garden!