I am realizing that I am spending way more time thinking about my blog than writing my blog. I have notes scribbled down everywhere. I need to gather my notes, my Haanel, my Greatest Salesman and a good place to sit to type it out. This week I feel like I had a huge breakthrough after realizing a few things about myself.
I wrote a bit about the third scroll in The Greatest Salesman last week. I started finding that it was bringing up some pretty strong feelings that didn’t feel good to me. I started asking myself “why does the reading about being persistent make me upset?”. “What am I holding on to that is not serving me to accept the offerings of this scroll?” It’s funny how subby pieces together answers when I pay attention.
The first little nudge was as we were talking in our tribe this week about the sacrifice we write in our DMP’s. Many of us were having a challenge trying to sort out why our DMP’s kept coming back to us? Why are our guides rejecting them? What do they want from us?? Well, Scott, one of the members of our tribe, described the sacrifice so beautifully and put the pieces together for me. Then Davene chimed in to tie it up with the reminder and the hammer that we are where we are in our lives because we made it so. This life is all mine. The good, the bad and the sometimes ugly.
My “sacrifice” of giving up my TV time has nothing to do with TV. It is about what is really, truly, holding me back from where I am heading. I have been, up till now, a fabulous procrastinator! (I bet you didn’t know that yet!) The TV was my means of comfort and stalling. My peptides were addicted to the feeling of being in control of accomplishing nothing that I am meant to! As I realized this, I decided this was not who I am. I am able to detach from this! It is no longer serves me! I am whole, strong, powerful, loving, perfect, harmonious and happy!
This brings me back to The Greatest Salesman. It seems I have also been addicted to playing a bit of a guilt and victim role. While Og speaks in this third scroll about persistence being necessary for victory, I have felt undeserving of this victory. So the best way to stop persisting to reach certain victory?? Procrastinate! Awesome! (Not really) Haanel shares “It is well, however, to remember that while every effect is the result of a cause, the effect in turn becomes a cause, which creates other effects, which in turn create still other causes; so that when you put the law of attraction into operation you must remember that you are starting a train of causation for good or otherwise which may have endless possibilities.” In turn, I am where I am because of a cause that I am only now aware of and I can now release this from my mind. I am no longer a victim and I no longer carry the guilt of past doings. “I am a lion and I refuse to talk, to walk, to sleep with the sheep”. I will persist until I succeed.