“And what shall I do with this last precious day which remains in my keeping” – Og Mandino
We started with a new scroll this week. And this week has been quite a ride right from the first reading of this scroll till now. My first thought when I read this line was “going to work is definitely NOT what I would do”. This scroll seemed to be a little “darker” than the others but it has really hit home with me. The importance of really loving what you do and making the best of what you have totally glared me in the face with such fanfare this week, I can no longer ignore it.
I ended up with a symptom of Covid-19 (I felt fine and everything is well now), but current health and government guidelines had me self-isolating for 10 days or until a negative Covid-19 test result came and no symptoms were left. I ended up in my bedroom without even my SO coming in for hugs. I also ended up totally dependent on him to bring me food. Oh the guilt at asking for a glass of water! I couldn’t go to work which brought on more guilt! It’s month end, the busiest time for my position at work. Who was going to do my job? What are they going to do to me for not coming in? 15 months ago, the tiny symptom I had (runny nose) would not have even brought a thought of missing work or staying away from my SO. I kept up with my Haanel and Og readings from the Master Keys, and I was grateful to have been able to book in for my test quickly. The results came in very swiftly from our health care system which I was also grateful for. (they were negative! Yay!!)
I was able to go back to work to finish off month end. My duties on the day I had off seemed to have been covered sufficiently. I have only been working 4 days a week instead of 5 since the pandemic and shut downs occurred, so a decision was now on my plate. I already missed a day of work, so I go in on the day I usually have off or just keep it as my usual day off. Og kept playing in my mind. And would I really be missed at this point if I did not go in? I decided that I will not be at the end of my life thinking I should have gone in that one extra day that week. The big work is done (my responsibilities) and it will be quiet enough for what work there is to wait one more business day. With that decision made, I am free now to live this day as the person I intend to become! Guilt-free!